A conversation

knocking: u know puma, at one point i really thought i figured you out

and then you put up this bitchy scoundrel who wouldn't mind mouthing fuck alls without reason,

this made me go numb and still, even now am putting as non insultingly as i can

cuz i fear your mindless aggression

i simply dont understand why i was , (more than one made the poor victim of your lambasting

Sent at 12:34 AM on Saturday

Anupama: ok cool it. I DIDN'T MEAN IT. and thats the way i am. i get mad at people cause i can without meaning it or without meaning to hurt them. thinking that they will take me for a bitch without getting hurt. I AM SORRY

knocking: civilized people, specially like you who are supposedly into such a noble profession tend to use their diction to mudsling friends

Anupama: hunh?

knocking: but not to such horrendous proportions

Anupama: i hope we are solved and lets make a truce i don want to start a new fight

knocking: well

i dont want to start wither

*either

Anupama: good

but I'm sorry

seriously

i was messed up badly

knocking: but like the bloke i am , i have this rather irritating habit of poking my nose everywhere, and anywhere i think my friends need my advise/help

Anupama: yes they do

and thats not a bad habit

knocking: and i do think, Puma i should know why

why did it all happen

what was on your mind then?

Anupama: nothing just crap

i was mad at everyone

knocking: frustrated ?

academic pressure?

breakup?

Anupama: no mad. like i was going crazy. like i still am. but with this internship i hardly get any time so i'm sober and also alone so thats keeping me cool

knocking: hee

heheee

interesting

Anupama: living through it isn't as interesting as it sounds

and don u hehehe. im serious

knocking: living through what?

Anupama: my craziness

knocking: their must be some specific reason.

for your craziness

Anupama: not really

u can say life

period

knocking: well, i guess i got one antidote

here's how it works

Anupama: ?

knocking: for the craziness thing

u go, start your laptop/pc/dvd player and watch your fav movie

it helps

suchi

tried and tested

personally

Anupama: i tried

it works rarely

knocking: Anu, i seriously hope you didnt get into some kinda dope during your "crazy" time

Anupama: i was about to

but my doping buddies refused to share it with me

knocking: wow

close

good

Anupama: so i get high on drinks

knocking: you talked about it to your parents ?

Anupama: and my parents found out

recently

knocking: about the craziness or about your dope buddies?

Anupama: about my drinking habit

and about my craziness

knocking: hmm

hmm

hope it wasn't unpleasant

Anupama: well them finding out bout my drinking habit wasn't as unpleasant as my acts of crazyness

recently they removed all latches of my room

room's door and all

knocking: oops

Anupama: lol

yeah but since the past three weeks i've been in del

knocking: so it seems they were understanding

Anupama: and now ill go straight to hostel

so it ll be ok i guess

knocking: hmm

anyhow

Puma, tell me , whats your dope ?

Anupama: love

nothing can beat it

knocking: well Anu love is surely the biggest dope, for it works like an elixir for some , and a catastrophe for some

Tolstoy said

" the magic of first love is our foolishness in believing that it can never end "

Anupama:but then again nothing lasts forevetr

knocking: yp

Anupama: except for sadness

knocking: hmm

thats precisely the point

anyhow

moving on

i asked ,

whats your poison?

Anupama: as in/.

knocking: ur fav wine/beer/ alcohol

Anupama: i don even care about the name, once im having it, im done only when i forget which one i had had

knocking: thats pretty bad way of consuming liquor

but then to each his own

Anupama: lol, i know

knocking: u seem like such a wreak

Anupama: i am . seriously

knocking: but then Anu have you ever felt like taking professional help?

Anupama: yes

but ive given up on it now

knocking: r u ?

Anupama: no i never consulted anyone, but i don think anyone can help me

knocking: u r being foolish

Anupama: im serious

life is a screw up-you cannot figure it out. its a dillusion so no one can help anyone out

knocking: sweety thats what happens when you stop believeing in the concept of god, and think listening to Rock is giving instant Nirvana

ANu , dont crapp all over your life

you have been a wonderfull person all this while

Anupama: how do u know im an aetheist? and i don listen to rock all that much. i prefer blues now

knocking: why giving it alll up?

huh

what i mean is

you dont wanna help yourself

Anupama: no one wins in life. everyone is a loser in the end

knocking: when you know your life is in a rut

Anupama: its not

knocking: yaieks

thats a shipwreak speaking

but then its your life